So After 23 Years I Finally Have a Diagnosis

I have Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis. I actually initially found the diagnosis myself. I was having a severe flare up and nothing that usually treated the symptoms was working. I sat there at night in the middle of my symptoms thinking; at times the symptoms are worse than others, they’ve been going on for 23 years, my …

Depression, an old Acquaintance

I am doing okay right now but there was a time earlier this year when i was not. An old familiar feeling crept back into my life. Depression. For me, depression is hardest to deal with during that time of the day when the sun is going down and the light is fading. It means …

The Last 8 Months

8 months ago someone i respected deeply for the work he was doing and the way he treated those in his care nearly died. He remained critical for about a month. During that time i did a lot of praying, a lot of bargaining, and i made a lot of promises to God about what …

The Same but Different

Ive come to the conclusion that for me there is a pre-pandemic world and a post-pandemic world. There is no “going back to normal”. I am aware in a way that i wasnt before how quickly rights can be lost in the name of handling an emergency. Im also aware how quickly humans resort to …

Missing Tea, Flavor, and Energy

Following my recent bout with covid i had some mineral deficiency issues to work through. A side effect of these deficiencies seems to be a general feeling of hopelessness and doom. That is lessening greatly and i am beginning to feel like myself. I mean, something bad is always going on somewhere but when you …

Patience Required

Im having a rough time with anxiety and depression. A surgery i have needed since i was 14 was granted last month. This is a huge step forwards. Unfortunately, just because it was granted does not mean it is going to happen. The surgery is not yet scheduled and there are visits, tests, paperwork, and …

Insomnia

My colleagues began discussing the emergence of anxiety disorders during the pandemic. Nurses who were used to operating inside of life or death situations for ten minute periods, doing everything possible to revive or maintain a patient until the EMTs took over found themselves in the same type of situation but extended for months on …

Depression

I have always been the type of person that’s good in a crisis situation. I have a very analytical mind. Things are very black and white for me all the time, so too in a crisis. Its usually pretty clear to me what needs to be done and what needs to be prioritized in the …

God’s Grace

I’d been told by many people that change was the only constant in life. I wasn’t sure if i quite identified with that statement. I felt God’s grace was also a constant in my life so i wasn’t sure if i could say with any confidence that i understood “change” to be the only ever-present …