I expected everything to be dead. I mean, it was 4 degrees. At that point, the water in the aloe vera spines should have frozen within the plant and the thawed aftermath would be mush. I pulled the towels off of the aloe vera expecting to say goodbye and i realized that 3 of the 4 aloe vera plants still had green spines that had held their shape in the very center of the plant. I wondered how on earth that was possible. Was it like a human succumbing to hypothermia…did the plant lose its arms and legs to save the torso? I just couldn’t imagine that the plant had any means to generate enough heat under that towel to keep the center spines from freezing at 4 degrees. Over the next couple weeks the pill bugs ate away the dead plant matter and the center spines grew bigger. One of the three survivors died. It looked like it might be okay for a few days and then i found pill bugs in the center of the plant as well and knew the thing had lost its battle and was rotting. I still have two aloe vera plants and am nursing them along in the hopes that they will get bigger and one day generate pups that i will place where the two dead ones lie now. When i realized the aloe vera had a chance i started wondering what else had a will to live. Directly after the storm everything looked very dead but sometimes looks can be deceiving. I wondered if God would revive any of my beloved trees and if so which ones. I started walking around the property and removing the towels and blankets from everything.
The biggest surprise by far was the apple tree. One day last year i opened an apple and the seeds had sprouted inside the apple. I put them on a wet paper towel and eventually into a cup of dirt. Then later in the year i had put it in the ground. Cashew had bulldozed the fencing and run over it a couple times. It froze and lost its four tiny leaves during the winter storm. It was an inch tall. I thought for sure that was the end of it. It literally appeared to be a shriveled 1 inch stick in the ground. It resembled a gnarled toothpick for about a week. But, when i removed the towel i saw a cluster of green perched at the top of the stick. It was a few leaves huddled together, just beginning to unfold. I was in awe. It was just a twig and here it was opening new leaves! What a will to survive! What a great little apple tree!
The barbecue rosemary was actually in fairly good shape considering the circumstances.
The native rosemary didnt fare so well. However, there were green bits. I could work with that.
Arguably, the brown turkey fig tree was the whole point of the orchard in the first place. It seemed the most important tree on the whole property, and yet, it appeared to be very dead for the longest time. Long after other trees sprouted new leaves the fig tree stood grey, leafless, and shriveled. Just at the moment i decided to stop watering it and give up hope, i noticed around 6 little green buds protruding from the branches. It was alive! Within the next week these green nubs would continue to grow and 6 tiny fig leaves would open.
The pomegranate tree was the second biggest surprise after the apple tree. I bought it last year in Austin as a couple of twigs in a pot. It cost me 11 dollars. It was such a tiny tree. I was sure it was dead. But, one day i noticed two little redish green leaves poking out from one of the sticks. Within the next 5 days both twigs were covered in new leaves.
I lifted the blanket from the loquat tree carefully. There was a rather large and easily agitated spider that had made a web on the underside of the blanket that included some of the leaves on the loquat tree. He hated being disturbed and had a lot to say about it every time i lifted the blanket to check on the plant. I got the shock of a lifetime. The loquat tree was fine. It was whole, upright, and all of its leaves were green. There was the spider, mad as ever that i had lifted the roof off its lair. I wondered how the spider had survived. I wondered if it had gone underground or stayed underneath the blanket in its web. What had kept the loquat warm? The spider? If so, what had kept the spider warm? The loquat tree was the only plant on the property that didn’t suffer any damage. Perhaps it was because my grandmother had sprouted it from a seed and it was still somehow under the protection of her green thumb from where it stood. A week later it would open two new leaves, signifying the first new growth to happen to it while on my property.
One day i went out and the mulberry tree had erupted in fits of little green leaf buds. In a week and a half it was covered in leaves and flowers that eventually turned to little green berries.
Pears are my favorite fruit. So, i was holding out hope that the pear tree would follow suit. I kept checking and kept checking and still no signs of life. But i kept watering it and kept praying to God. One day i noticed two little green leaf buds poking out of the branches and i danced about the yard whooping and hollering and shouting “it’s alive! It’s alive!” If somebody had walked by they would have thought i created Frankenstein the way i was carrying on. Within a week and a half the tree was covered in beautiful rounded waxy green leaves with rosy edges. It looked beautiful. It was the best and most thorough comeback out of all the trees!
I knew the lemon trees, the mandarin tree, and the avocado tree were dead. There was no reviving them. They were snap-in-half dry as a bone; no water running through them. If it was a human, i would have said “no pulse”. So, i understood and didn’t expect those to come back. However, the pecan tree had been about to bud when it froze. All the tiny brown buds were right where they had been and they were all still brown, but if my eyes weren’t playing tricks on me, they appeared to be getting bigger. I wondered if i was losing my mind or imagining things. It had not a single green thing on it but these brown buds appeared to be growing. Then one morning i went out and saw that two of the buds had split and green leaves were now peeking out. All the brown buds had been incubating green inhabitants. Within the next 5 days i watched each one split open and give birth to jungle green leaves. The pecan tree lived as well! So i’d lost 2 aloe vera and the tropical plants, but, everything else came back. I did not replace the citrus or avocado tree. There was no point. At some point in every season it was going to freeze hard. There was no sense in wasting money replacing that which wouldn’t survive long term. I would one day put a persimmon tree where the lemon had been. It was a good tree and had given me a few lemons over multiple years. It will be remembered fondly as will the mandarin. I realized God was infinitely amazing and had so many talents i didn’t anticipate. His creations are so much more resilient than mine. I have no idea how any of these trees came back, and yet, here they are.
Having my dogs back was incredible. It was a feeling i couldn’t describe. I was supposed to be studying for my exam but at this point we still didn’t have a/c and it was getting stuffy in the house. A front was blowing in. It was warm and sunny. A fierce and wild wind blew the mailbox and plant pots about the yard. It crashed the wind chimes together and made the telephone and power lines dance. I brought my notebook outside and sat down in the dirt in the dog run. I knew i could only do this in the winter or very early spring. Otherwise the ground would be crawling with ants and scorpions. It was a thing i could only get away with during the colder months. There wasn’t a bug in sight. They were all underground, despite the warm front. I took off my shoes and placed my feet in the dirt. It made me feel grounded. I felt better. I sat in the dirt and the dogs sat with me. I listened to the wind rattle through the trees. It made an eerie sound, almost like wind traveling through a metal tunnel. Having grown up in the city, i was fascinated by and never tired of this noise. I was hearing the wind whistle through a multitude of trees, not just rattle leaves on one tree, but move through acres of trees to get to where i was. It was a different noise that was like music to my soul. It meant that i was surrounded…right where i wanted to be.
I thought about the trees, how i viewed them as good company. The trees creaked and rustled in the wind. It was as if they were talking softly amongst themselves, but even on still days, i found them to be better company than humans. I knew on some subconscious level i viewed them as peers and others viewed them as the landscape. I knew this was not normal, but i never professed to be normal. I enjoyed the company of the trees, the music of the wind, and the antics of the dogs and song birds. I was having a peaceful, grounded day and in that moment, experiencing it seemed more important than anything else i could be doing with my life.
That being said, i did manage to read through my notebook and memorize all the material for the written part of the exam by nightfall.
I was surprised to see that my toes left tracks just like any other animal when i wasn’t wearing shoes. I think some part of me was more animal than participant of society, but the human bit of me realized that if i didn’t participate in society i would have no land upon which to sit barefoot in the dirt.
The day the window unit arrived i was frustrated because my teacher had only uploaded the first page of 8 in an editable form. The full 8 page document was read only but the assignment was to fill the documents out, which meant i had to print them. This involved going to another town. I drove one town over to use my friend’s printer but i couldn’t get it to print from either my computer or hers. So i got back in the car and drove to the city where i printed the documents at office max. They felt so bad that i had driven all that way to print one thing that they didn’t charge me the few cents i owed them. But God had other plans, for as i stood in line my phone chimed and i had a message from home depot that my window unit was ready for pickup…in town…where i was. What a happy accident. I went over to home depot and helped the employee load the unit in the suv. Then i texted my ac repair guy on the way home and he said he’d meet me there. The insurance guy called and wanted to come out a day early to look at the well, so i told him i’d meet him back at the property. He did come out and look at the damages and they agreed to cut a check for the amount of the repairs minus my deductible. The a/c repair guy showed up shortly afterwards and we both hoisted the unit out of my car and into the grass. I then held the unit in the window while he screwed it in place with the drill. After everything was installed i was a bit skeptical about whether we were done or not but he assured me that this was how it was supposed to be. I wondered why we had so many screws left over, why there were visible gaps between where the accordion plastic met the unit and hooked into it on the sides, and how water was going to not enter the house during rain when the accordion plastic was just sitting in the window tray completely exposed to the elements. I tried not to worry about it but logic told me we weren’t done. He said, “fire it up, give it a try.” I said, “i can’t,” and held up the extension cord plug with a sideways prong jutting out of it. He said, “Oh…you need an electrician.” I nodded. Just another day of life here on the homestead. -_-
I’ve procrastinated on writing this post because i don’t know how. I haven’t the words. I’ve decided to keep this post short because otherwise it’ll never get written. I actually retrieved the dogs one day before the window unit was rendered functional. Upon installation it was discovered that an electrician was needed. Once again i was left standing in the middle of the mess one smidgeon away from making it functional. I realized i could no longer afford to keep boarding the dogs, placed a call to the vet, and drove to town to pick them up. I would like to say i kept myself composed and behaved like any respectable adult would but i did not. When the vet tech opened the car door and one by one each dog jumped in i lost it and bawled like a baby. I finished my sobbing while my uber traumatized dogs tried to become one with my clothing, jumping all over the steering wheel and sitting everywhere dogs couldn’t fit. The impressive thing was that when the tech opened the door Cashew jumped up on the seat, something she never does with her clumsy bow-legged self. She was so determined to go with us that she did it first try without any hesitation. I drove home in a weird state of shock and let the dogs see the big tree limbs i sawed off for them. neither dog was interested in the branches for the next week. All they wanted to do was be right by me. We spent a lot of time just chilling in the house and i assured them they were home for good. They sat right by me all the time and were both on their best behavior. Some piece of myself had returned. They are my companions and my babies. They are family. I was glad to have them home.
With the dogs being gone i’ve fallen into a depression. I try to go about my chores and my studies and keep chipper at work but i’m phoning it in. My family is in boarding at the clinic and until that window unit arrives i can’t bring them home. But, there’s an added layer of inconvenience in their absence. With them gone for now predator patrol falls to me. I guess i havent been doing that great a job at it because there are paw prints in the mud not 8 feet from the front porch steps. The mud was soft from the rain and the paws must have sunk down and back as the animal launched itself onto the grassy area. They look to me like the prints of a coyote. I think they just look bigger and more menacing than they are because the animal slid in the mud, leaving claw tip marks at the front of the prints. Then tonight i waited too long to go put the door on the chicken coop. By the time i opened the door it was pitch dark. I hadn’t left the porch light on so until that moment the property was in complete darkness. I switched on the light and pulled the door open. As i went to step out on the porch i heard what sounded like a loud burp and then a kind of snorty grunting noise. Jesus Christ. Feral hogs. I took the metal chicken door and smacked it loudly against the door frame. This did not send the hogs running in the direction i was hoping for. I quickly slammed the door shut. I decided the chickens didn’t need the door on the coop just yet.
Things are starting to dry out. The ground is mere mud instead of slush now. I noticed that some of my outlets weren’t working so each time i discovered one i reset it. When i reset the one on the outside of the house the water softeners began making a noise. I suddenly realized the displays had not turned on when i had returned power to the well house. Somehow, when i reset the outdoor outlet the display lit up on the water softener with a collection of blinking error messages. I went ahead and placed a call to the softener company and they agreed to come out and reset the softeners the following day. I collected a day’s worth of chicken eggs and placed them in the well house with a note. City folk tip repair men with money. Farmers tip repair men with vegetables and ranchers and backyard chicken owners tip repair men with eggs.
The high was 84 degrees. It was hot in the house. With no a/c and a metal roof, i did most of my school work and meal prep on the porch in summer clothes. Seeing as i spent nearly the whole day outdoors i got very sunburned, even though i was in the shade most of the time.
At one point i thought i’d drive down to the only store in my town “dollar general” and get a couple spiral notebooks to write in since i’d filled the ones i was using for school. cell service and internet had been very unreliable and skimpy since the storm. There were now dead-zones that stretched for miles. The cashier announced that she couldn’t get the register online and so it would have to be a cash only situation today. I didn’t have any cash and the only atm in town was known for eating cards so none of us used it. I had to drive all the way into town (the nearest city) to buy a couple spiral notebooks, half an hour of shopping mayhem and an hour of driving. I did finally find some gasoline though so i replaced the quarter tank of gas i’d used. I didn’t notice the torn tree limbs until near sundown. I don’t own a chainsaw because the hospital is a long drive from my property. I don’t own any tools that could render me bleeding out in .02 seconds. So the poor cedars had to wait while i worked and worked at it standing on my porch chair with a manual hand saw. Eventually i got the job done. Everyone further north in texas told me it was their oak trees that were losing branches left and right but for me it ended up being the cedars. These normally indestructible little trees just had too much greenery for the ice to cling to. I left all the branches in the dog run. When these dogs come home they’ll have some epic chew toys to work on. It made me sad when i said it to the chickens. Sometimes i’ll be cooking or working on school work and think “you know the dogs have been outside for a while i should let them in and see if they want to rest for a while” and then i’ll remember they’re not here. When i brush my teeth at night i’ll turn to tell Sili she can finally get in the bed and her excited face isn’t eagerly awaiting the command. In the morning i go to fill their water bowl and its not there. I’m standing over an empty placemat in the corner with the pitcher poised and ready. It’s so quiet in the house. I wonder if this is what divorced parents feel like after they send their kids to stay with their ex for the summer. I closed the gate to the dog run. They’ll have to wait a couple weeks to see the giant chew toys i left them but they’ll be back, eventually, when i can get some a/c out here. That’ll be the day; when the dogs come home.
February 15, 2021…the storm of a century made its arrival in Texas. Consumed by preparation for the semester’s first exams scheduled for the 14th, i wasn’t really paying attention to anything else. I knew it was going to be cold. I couldn’t have imagined the events that would follow.
The day before the storm, an agarita berry bush tried to bloom. I was unsure whether to leave the door open on the coop during the day or just let the chickens ride the weather out locked up. I called the local feed stores to get their opinion but they were closed. Finally i tried tractor supply. As usual i made contact with a teenager who had never owned chickens and didn’t know anyone who had. (Smack face…drag hand down) the girl at tractor supply was not very friendly and told me that the whole town was out of stock when it came to heat lamps and if i hadn’t already purchased one my chickens were doomed. She told me point blank, “they’re going to die.” Over the next 45 minutes i read various articles on cold hardiness of certain breeds of chickens. My chickens were said to be able to tolerate temperatures of 17 degrees or above. It was forecasted to be 5 degrees. I had never experienced 5 degrees in my life. I didn’t know what that number was, what it was like… 5 was quite a bit different from 17. All the literature stated that a heat lamp was the wrong way to go. It thawed the poop in the bedding and increased moisture in the coop, contributing heavily to the possibility of frost bite on feet and combs. For some reason i just knew that finding a heat lamp was not the way to go. I probably had one left over from the plant boxes last year buried somewhere in the tool shed but for some reason i just knew it would be no help in the matter. The tractor supply teen’s words echoed in my head, “they’re going to die.” I threw open the shed door and cleared a path. I dragged my stock watering tub over the threshold, down the stairs, and across the yard. I filled it with wood shavings and hay. I put an old chick feeder full of pellets in there and a basin of water. Then one by one i carried the chickens from their pen into the house, placing them in the tub and then covering the top with a latched screen i had hanging out in the shed. Once i had all the chickens in the tub i placed books over the screen to hold it in place against the tub. These chickens would not die on my watch.
On the night of the 13th i was frantically trying to cram as much information and software know-how into my head as possible before it was too late to do so. Upon examining the forecast i took a break from my studies to ready the property for the approaching storm. I took the lantern to the extension shed and in the bitter cold and dark i shifted everything around to pull the plywood rectangles out of the back of the shed. I had home depot fashion them with their jigsaw back before i had curtains, when the sun was heating the house like an oven and i needed to give the a/c unit a break. With single paned windows and uninsulated walls, i needed to try to keep as much of the cold on the outside of the house as i could. I knew my wall unit was finicky and unreliable and i had a sneaking suspicion it planned to die in the middle of this approaching winter storm. I figured the plywood window inserts would put less stress on it and prolong its life so i hauled them inside the house and hoisted them into place on the window ledges behind the curtains. In the morning i would examine them more closely and shift them so that the gap was as minuscule as possible on each side.
The ice actually arrived in quantity on the 14th. I know this because both the dogs and chickens had to be present during my google meet video exams. It was 20 degrees outside and i couldn’t leave them out there so my exams were conducted amidst a frenzy of squawking, egg laying, whining, and incessant barking. It was amazing i passed at all. Finally when time was running out on the clock and i could no longer think through the merciless, ceaseless barking echoing through the tiny house, i took off my jacket and laid it on the floor. I told Cashew she could pee on it, rip it up, do anything she wanted, so long as she quieted down. She moved the jacket around a bit, turned in three circles, and both dogs bedded down on the jacket. She went to sleep. There is a God. I finished my exams and managed to pass though the scores were nothing to write home about. I’m sure the proctors were very entertained…either that or ready to pull their hair out as well.
When i saw the amount of ice accumulating on the roads, fences, and trees, i checked the forecast and noted the temperature was not going to get near above freezing for days. None of this ice was set to melt. There would be no way i could make it to work for my shift on monday if the roads remained iced over like they were. Being that we were outside of any formal city, we were not entitled to services such as city trash pickup or city road maintenance. That meant no one had spread sand or gravel on the road prior to it freezing solid. The road beyond the driveway was coated in a thick layer of ice. I stood on it in my down slippers and began to do the splits. Yup, there was no way the tires would do anything other than what my feet had done. It was clear and glassy. I could see the asphalt trapped beneath the frigid coating. What a sight. I watched the group message board as people attempting to make it to work slid on the ice, rendering their cars stuck on bridges or smashed into trees. I called into work and let them know i wouldn’t be able to make it monday. No one was succeeding in getting to work by driving on the ice. They were merely wrecking their cars in trying. The policy began as “it is your duty to get here”. Once a good many had tried and failed the policy quickly morphed to “please stay home”.
The gate latch was frozen solid to the pole with a thick layer of ice encasing it. It looked invisible, one with the metal, but it was certainly there and very strong. I pulled and pried with all my might until the ice broke and the latch released. The latch scraped my arm as my hand flew back and punched my own nose with a force that surprised me. For a moment i wondered if i’d broken my nose. I concluded that it was fine. From then on i did not latch the gate to the dog run. Freezing precipitation continued to fall and i did not want a repeat of my earlier 1 woman boxing show.
all of a sudden, the yard was overtaken by 50 to 60 red breasted birds. They were fat birds with long skinny legs and scruffy brown feathers. They were bigger than the songbirds i was used to. I had never seen this kind of bird. The yard was soon overrun by them, hopping about and pecking at things in the icy grass. They swooped and flew across the yard, criss crossing each other and calling to each other constantly. The chickens huddled at the fence in the pen and watched them. They seemed to be listening to the strange birds’ chatter. I texted my great uncle a video of the birds and asked him what kind they were. The maker of birding software for his entire life my great uncle immediately responded that i had a yard full of american robins. How on earth? A real robin. 50 of them! I watched them for hours, intrigued by the mere amount of them and their peculiar hopping gait. I was entranced. The chickens were too. Unfortunately Cashew finally had to be let out to go to the bathroom and she chased them ceaselessly until they all flew. They left the property completely littered in burnt red bird poop.
The chickens started out in the pen but when temperatures reached the twenties i closed up the pen and the coop and relocated them to the house. They seemed grateful for the warmth and shelter from the wind.
The icicles began to accumulate on everything and reminded me of hanging Christmas lights strung up around the edges of structures during the holiday season.
As the ice began to accumulate the tree limbs bent towards the ground and some threatened to break. They made the strangest crisp rattling noise when the bitter wind blew and all the ice particles knocked together. It was eerie, a sound i’d never heard before. I began to understand that this was real winter, not texas winter. It wasn’t an hour or two of ice or a half centimeter of snow, a two degree dip below freezing. I began to understand that this was something different i had never known before and i was ill prepared.
At 19 degrees the water in the pex tubes under the house froze solid and we officially had no water. I began taking in rain water that had frozen into a solid block in the yard in an attempt to thaw some for the chickens to drink.
Ice laden branches leaned heavily on the fence and threatened to bust. I was glad i had taken out my study frustrations by trimming many of the property’s trees just days before the temperatures dropped.
Rain continued to fall and ice continued to form.
Trees that normally stood upright now became more like bushes.
I began using the space heater to thaw ice into water for the chickens. They stunk up the house to high heaven and my aussie was barking continuously and breaking things left and right, but i was determined to keep everybody indoors and keep us all alive. Cashew broke my childhood stoneware dinner plate. I ordered a replacement. She tore a giant hole in the mosquito netting. I ordered a replacement. It got to the point where i figured there was no use in putting the credit card away as long as she was stuck inside the house. It was only a matter of time before she broke something else. Best just leave it on the table.
The chickens continued to lay eggs in the stock water tub in the house. In fact they didn’t go a single day without giving at least 1 egg, usually 3.
It seemed like we would be fine as long as we all stayed in our respective compartments of the 1 room house.
Midway through the morning of the 15th the rolling blackouts began. It was 21 degrees outside. The lights cut off and the noise of the heating unit died. The power was out. I figured a branch had fallen on a power line somewhere and crews would have to go out and fix it. The dogs and i huddled in the bed together and the chickens huddled in the stock tub. I tried to call to report the outage but the line was busy. In forty minutes the power was back on. The heater began humming and the lights came back on. I thought all was well again. 40 minutes later, like clock work, the lights cut off and the heater fell silent. I called to report the outage and this time was greeted by a recording stating that my area was experiencing state mandated rolling blackouts in increments of 40 minutes and that the power company was aware of the outage in my area. No duh, they created it. At first i wasn’t worried. 40 minutes, though inconvenient, was a reasonable and manageable amount of time to do without power, even during a winter storm. If it was necessary to manage the power demands at the time, i figured we could tolerate it. Then the power cut on for forty minutes and off for two hours. With the only house insolation in the ceiling and single pane windows, we faired worse with this model. For each two hours the power was off the temperature in the tiny house dropped lower and lower and the forty minutes the power was on could not offset the amount of temperature change that had occurred in 2 hours. It became colder and colder in the tiny house with each cycle of 40 minutes to 2 hours. Then it became 2 hours and 5 minutes, 2 hours and 15 minutes…the time the power was off stretched longer and longer while it was only ever on for 40 minutes exactly.
When it became apparent that the electric company had no qualms about killing us, and i don’t mean us as in my household, i mean us as in texans, i realized we would have to take steps to rectify our own situation. I heard via cell phone from those in austin that people were going without power for 16 hours at a time over there, succumbing to hypothermia in their houses, roads impassible. Though the power companies were holding press conferences and people were calling for them to stop the madness that was killing people, they seemed very set on their plan and the governor assured people the temperature would be back in the sixties in a week. I wondered if the governor understood the science behind hypothermia.
Realizing we were in trouble, i made a run for the shed. It was around 10 degrees at this point and the door was iced shut. The gloves were probably buried somewhere in the shed but that wasn’t what i was looking for. I knew there was a possibility that i had stashed a down comforter from years ago when i had a full-sized bed in one of the storage toy-boxes in the extension shed. That or i had donated it to goodwill. It was the only thing that would save us. I had to look for it. I broke the door away from the ice coating that had covered the front of the shed. In the short amount of time it had taken me to run from the house to the shed my bare hands had gone numb and i was now fumbling to understand what they were doing. I thrust them about, willing them to do my bidding, but the interior of the shed was freezing as well and i could not warm them up. My hands remained numb and near useless as i tried to use them to open toy-box after toy-box. This one held vitamins, that one clothes, this one towels…none of them a comforter. I tucked my hands between my legs and tried to warm them wedged there but to no avail. My fingers began burning and stinging and i almost preferred the numbness to the horrid sensation. I was running out of time. The numbness was creeping up my arms. I would have to go back inside soon. I could only do these ventures from the house when the power was on so i could warm my extremities next to the heater upon returning to the house. How many trips would i have time for? I couldn’t believe it but i was going back to the house empty handed. Maybe i had donated it to goodwill after all. In a furious fit of frustration i threw all of the remaining toy boxes down from their stacks and ripped the lids off with uncooperative zombie fingers that no longer took heed of my orders. I heard a clicking noise and i felt the vibrations rattle through my arms but i didn’t yet understand with what force i was hurling and slamming the boxes about the shed. I tore the lid off the last box with a snap and there was one bundled mass of white down comforter. It was a beautiful sight. I grabbed it and lifted it out, straightening the boxes a bit before locking the shed and running with the down comforter back to the house. I was so excited to show the dogs what i had found. I threw the down comforter on the bed exclaiming, “this, this is going to save us.” My mother had asked if i had one days before the storm arrived, which made me think about whether i still did. It turned out i did not donate it to goodwill in the downsizing after all. As i let go of the comforter i realized my nails were short and jagged. There were cracks running into the middle of my fingernails. I had torn my fingernails off rooting through the boxes in the shed and ripping their lids off. I hadn’t felt a thing. My hands were numb. Now i tried to clean the wreckage up a bit with the nail clipper. The power cut off and i gathered the dogs in the bed under the new found treasure i had retrieved. I told Sili to “load up” and she did. I had to hoist Cashew into the bed. I got them covered and then i joined them for a nap, setting the alarm on my phone for the next possible time the power might cut on.
The road was completely coated with smooth treacherous ice. It looked deceptively benign.
When the power came on i threw open the oven and set it to 400 degrees, turned all the stove burners on high, turned the space heater on high, and set the wall unit to heat the room to 82 degrees. it never got there but it gave it something to try for. I plugged in my external phone battery, my phone, and my lap tops. I made it as warm as i could for the 40 minutes we had power and then we would wait until it was time to do it again. Within the first hour of the electricity being off it became uncomfortably cold in the tiny house. The place was not well insulated. As i lay in the dark waiting for the power to cut back on so i could throw open the oven and turn on the stove and heater i thought that both the governor and the electric company were sort of cruel. It wasn’t like a natural disaster was doing this to us. Nothing had fallen on the power lines and taken them out. People behind a computer were switching our power on and off strategically in an attempt to conserve power for the hospitals and nursing homes which were to remain always on the grid no matter what. They were deciding who lived or died and it felt personal.
The dogs seemed excited about sleeping together in the bed at first. They thought it was a party. I needed them to keep me warm. I wore every down feather garment i had.
Sili, my ever intuitive dog, seemed unaffected by either the weather or my mood. She seemed unbothered. Strangely it was Cashew who keyed in on the fact that something was wrong. The chickens were in the house. I was emitting anxiety from every pore. She was in the house. She just couldn’t make sense of it. She became very clingy and needy and anxiety ridden. I made a note to myself that when i was rich i needed to buy a medium sized dog thunder jacket. She was driving me crazier than usual. I managed to get both dogs settled and lying wedged against me while i wore my down vest, down jacket, and down slippers under our down blanket. Cashew thrashed and squirmed like an octopus but when Sili was pressed against my vest she held still and close and shared the insulation of my vest, melding her heat with mine.
The thermometer on the porch became completely encased in ice.
One morning something strange happened. I went to bed listening to the roof being hit with tiny ice balls. It was pouring ice balls. I woke up to silence. I called the dogs to the door to go out potty. The moment i opened the door we all stopped dead in our tracks. My eyes didn’t know what to make of it. Where the porch should have been was a good 2 or 3 inches of white. I stared at it. What was it? Why was it just standing in the doorway like that? I looked at the dogs as i realized, it was snow. Lots of it. At some point in the night it had snowed. Except for during infancy, i had never seen real snow. I just stood there staring before realizing the door was open and slamming it shut. “I musn’t become so mesmerized by its beauty that i forget about survival”, i thought.
It was very beautiful. I was tempted to go out and explore, walk in it, take photographs. When else in my life would i be seeing snow in Texas? But, it was still 8 degrees. I needed to limit exposure to outside and only go out when there was power, when i had a way to warm up afterwards. I kept my excursions from the house to a minimum and took just a few pictures though i wanted to take 100. I didn’t venture far from the door when i did go out.
The snow was dry and powdery. A Texan, i was used to dip’n’dots ice balls. Never had i seen real snow in such quantity. It was surreal.
The heating unit began displaying an error message and switching off at some point during the night. The next morning i went to check on it and found it covered in snow. I used my hands to swipe all the snow off of it. The error message disappeared but i never heard the fan blades roar to life again.
The freezing and thawing would ruin the watering can. Later it would pull apart like a tin can of tuna, pliable under the gentlest fingers. It was baffling how its properties had changed.
I began collecting snow for the chickens to drink. I didn’t realize snow was 5 parts air and 1 part water. It took a lot of snow to water the chickens. All that snow would create just a little bit of water and it took forever to melt.
The mr cool wall unit began displaying an error message again.
Still well below freezing, the sun made its appearance. It melted the ice on the roof into water droplets which slid down and refroze in the frigid air on the icicles hanging from the house. The icicles became large and elongated as a result.
I had never seen this view from the porch. The property didn’t look like mine. It looked like we were somewhere else.
I thought all of it would melt under the sun but it was so cold that it didn’t.
Here we were heading into that night; the coldest night of the storm. The low was set to be 4 degrees and nature didn’t disappoint. I knew how insane an idea it was to be in a remodeled shed in the middle of nowhere with two dogs and no power heading into a night that was forecasted to get down to 4 degrees. I wasn’t sure if we would survive. The tv in austin told my mother that those who felt they needed rescued could call 911 and a rescue crew would come get you and take you to a shelter. My dogs and chickens weren’t welcome. Only i would be allowed to go. This was not an option for me. We lived or died together. That was my decision. As i pulled the comforter over our heads i cuddled both of the dogs and told them i loved them. In case we didn’t make it i wanted to have a good moment with each of them. The survival plan hinged on the insulating properties of the feathers, our ability to huddle against each other, and my ability to wake up every two hours, weary as i was, to throw on every heat emitting thing in the house for 40 minutes.
It was cold. By now i had been waking every two hours to heat the house for days and i was delirious tired.
When i woke the following morning the first thing that i realized was that we were alive. Both dogs were breathing and had eyes open looking at me. The chickens all stirred when i nudged them. The air in the tub was amazingly warmer than the rest of the house. The chickens had huddled together and generated heat. The next thing that i realized was that i must have slept through one of the alarms and missed a time when the power would have come on. It was light outside and very cold in the tiny house. I had definitely slept several hours. I hadn’t gotten up and thrown the oven open or turned the stove on. Outside the thermometer read 5 degrees. I looked down and realized ice crystals had begun forming at the edges of the dogs’ water bowl. That meant it was freezing inside the house.
I looked at the forecast on my phone and realized we still had a good four more days of temperatures well below freezing. That meant the blackouts would continue, the lack of consistent heat would continue, the fight to survive would continue. To add insult to injury, the power didn’t come back on until 3 hours that morning. I was furious. Who were these strangers behind computers who were actively trying to kill us by playing God with electricity. They should do rolling blackouts for forty minutes for everyone, spread the outages around evenly, so everyone could be uncomfortable but live. Instead they decided nursing homes and hospitals needed the power and everyone on the grid with them got it by default. There was a flaw in their logic. Several elderly citizens existed in homes in the community. Not everyone lived in a nursing home. They too needed oxygen to breathe and when the power cut off their plug-in concentrators didnt work. One elderly gentleman made a trip across his iced-over driveway to get to his truck where he had a spare tank of oxygen. When he finally got the ice off the doors and made it inside he realized the tank was empty. He died sitting in his truck, exhausted from the effort. His family said he prepared for the storm, ordering an extra shipment of oxygen tanks, but it never arrived. He had no choice but to face the storm relying upon electricity and the electric company purposely cut power to his house to save it for the nursing home across town. When the power company says they must conserve the electricity for “the elderly” they should consider that only a fraction of our elderly live in nursing homes. The old man was not alone in his plight. In the same town an eleven year old boy perished doing exactly what the government told us we should be doing through these electricity blackouts. They told us to get in bed, cover up, and huddle together. I guess the boy didn’t huddle as close as the other family members. He succumbed to hypothermia quietly as they slept and in the morning they found him dead. What a horrible way to lose a child. When the governor downplays the seriousness of this situation i hope he remembers that 11 year old boys name and the look of anguish on his family members’ faces as they try to understand that their boy’s death was chosen by their own state government in order to prevent the death of others.
The forecast called for more snow; multiple days of it. we had a small window in the next 6 or 7 hours before the weather began again. Something snapped in me. I stood at the window looking out at the yard, washed in a pinkish gray light. I looked at the ice crystals forming in the dogs’ water bowl. I said aloud, “We’re getting out of here.” And with that, i was on a mission. I understood that to stay here meant death. We would join the others. With the howling wind and lack of insulated clothing, there would be no using ice laden wood to make a fire outside. Without electricity, there would be no heat inside. With more snow coming, we were about to be stuck for good. If we were going, now was our last chance. I was taking it. Rushing around outside, getting everything ready for our trip, i realized i had to make this work. There was no turning back now. I was opening and closing the door at a time when the power wasnt on and i was becoming very cold with no way to warm up for the next few hours in the house. I would need to do this to ready the car and the property for our departure but i had to be sure i was doing this all the way because failure would mean a return to a very cold house with no conserved left-over heat from the last time the power was on with frozen limbs.
The first thing i did was liberate the trashcan. People who don’t know me won’t understand this. It would seem i would need to be focused on more important things. However, the following day was trash day. I was pretty sure the private waste removal crew i paid to take my two bags a week to the dump was not coming in the middle of a snow storm but, you never know. I was leaving my property. I was abandoning my post, and if i was gonna leave it, i was gonna leave it right. The trash would be on the curb where it usually was. This meant i had to shovel the snow from the doors of the tool shed with my hands and beat the ice off the padlock with my keys. I finally grabbed hold of the doors and began prying wildly this way and that until they were shaken from the grip of the ice and slid backwards. I grabbed the trashcan from inside the shed but i also grabbed a few more things. I grabbed all the scrap wood i could carry, intending to use it to wedge under tires if we got stuck. I grabbed the shovel, intending to use it to dig the snow from the tires if we got stuck and the boards proved un-useful. I locked up the shed and dragged the trashcan towards the corner of the intersection. It left a track in the snow all the way to the gate. At the gate i realized we were stuck. The padlock was completely encased in ice. So was the chain. The gate was too slippery to climb. Instead, i climbed over the barbed wire fence and then lifted the trashcan over after me. I climbed back over the barbed wire to get back on the property. That would be a problem. We would have to find some way to get the padlock off the gate if we were to make our escape. The next problem was that the gate was held in a hill of snow. I would have to get the shovel and dig it out. The bigger problem still was the car. I had parked it under the oak trees. One side was clear and the other was covered in ice and snow in an epic way that would not allow the doors to open on that side of the car. The windows could not be seen out of either. I first cleared the snow with my hands. Then the ice became visible beneath it. I grabbed an old piece of scrap fence railing and beat the ice off the windows of the car on one side. Then i put my foot against the side of the car, grabbed a hold of the door handle and thrashed violently back and forth yelling “come on, come on…” until there was a crunching and creaking noise and the door popped open, dumping ice and snow onto the car seat. I cleared it out and began working on the next door. I put the key in the ignition and the car started up after some protest. I turned the defroster on. The window was stuck. Without being able to roll the window down i had to leave the door open to keep the car from locking with our only key inside. I went back to the house and began gathering more things. I would return when the windshield was somewhat melted. There was still half a foot of snow at the base of the windshield wipers which were encased in ice and plastered to the windshield. I cleared as much of the snow as i could and got behind the wheel. I had never driven in snow before. I needed to practice. I rolled about the yard in the car at 5 mph, getting a feel for how the car moved and how much traction i had on the powdery snow. The snow moved as i tried to roll over it and sometimes the car seemed to be rolling but not moving forwards. Other times, i meant the car to go forwards but it moved sideways and forwards. I began to understand that for best results one should drive slowly and use the brake sparingly and gently, focus on steering rather than stopping the car. I felt a couple turns around the yard gave me the info i needed to make a go of this and i began loading the car.
I tried to think about what we would need. If i was going to my friend Cindy’s house we needed to not tax their resources. We needed to hold our own lest we become a burden. They too only had the food in their house. They too had no access to water. I had 6 three gallon jugs of drinking water but as it turned out, when i had the car fully loaded, i would only find room to take 3. I packed the car as tightly as i could but the remaining 3 jugs had to be left behind. I emptied all of the food i had in the refrigerator into a box i had been using as a kitchen island. I took fruits, vegetables, a small bag of cooked rice, and a half a freezer bag of cooked quinoa. I grabbed my medicine. I loaded my computers so i could do school work at her house if we made it. I grabbed all the clean clothes out of the dryer and stuffed them in the laundry basket with my medicine and alcohol based soap. I threw that in the car. I filled a bag with hay from the shed. That would be bedding for the chickens. I hoisted a dog crate full of hay into the trunk of the car and wedged the bag of dog food and the bag of chicken feed beside it. I put some little water bottles of water for the chickens and a spray bottle for the succulent plant into the car. I figured it would be useful as extra chicken water. I wedged my 3 jugs of drinking water in the car. I took the leashes and dog bowls. I ran to the shed. I knew there was toilet paper in there from before i started buying “septic safe” toilet paper years ago. Sure enough, i found half a bag. I threw that in the car. I folded the remaining dog crate and wedged that in the car. The dogs would share one and the chickens would have the other. I put my purse in the car and began collecting the chickens. One by one i wedged them under my arm and tucked their feathers in so they couldn’t fly. One by one i took them out in the cold and put them into the hay lined dog crate in the car. They looked bewildered. I told them, “we’re getting out of here.” I grabbed my school notebooks. I put the dogs in the dog run to potty. I slipped a few extra clips into my hair. Without showers i may need those to keep it in place on my head. I grabbed a work shirt and my badge just in case i couldn’t make it back by saturday, my next shift. I grabbed the broccoli stems i had on the counter. We could cut those up and give them to the chickens; make the feed last longer. I now had a car full of chickens and dogs waiting in the dog run. Everyone was freezing. I knew i had to get us out of there. I left the car running with the defroster on and i ran to the gate to break the ice off the lock. Upon doing so i realized that the ice was also somehow in the keyhole of the padlock. It was all solid ice in there. I ran to the house and got the lighter. I held it underneath the lock. Every time i did the wind blew the flame out. This would not do. I ran to the house and found one of my two soy candles. I lit it. I shielded the flame all the way to the gate but the moment i revealed it to stick it under the lock the wind blew the flame out.
Now i was getting desperate. I ran to the house again with candle in tow. I grabbed a stick from the yard, tore some pages from my spiral notebook, rubber banded them to the stick, lit the candle, placed it against my body, used my arm and shoulder to shield it all the way to the fence, where i lit the notebook paper on the end of my make-shift torch on fire and for a second had a ball of flame which i held underneath the padlock. The paper quickly burned itself out and the ice covered stick wasn’t interested in burning.
I examined the lock. Did it work? It was black. I wondered if i had somehow melted the lock. I rubbed it with my thumb. The keyhole emerged. It was just soot. I stuck the key in the keyhole. The padlock popped open. It worked! We were free! I pushed the gate across the driveway. It made an awful creaking noise. I ran back to the house in my excitement. I called to the dogs, opening the gate, “get in! We’re doing this. We’re getting out of here!” I made one remaining torch just in case and put it under a seat. I took the lighter with me. It had come in handy. I didn’t know if we would need it again. I told both dogs to “load up”. Sili loaded. Cashew danced nervously. She was sort of bow legged and awkward. She could not balance on the seat like her sister and so had historically ridden in the trunk. The chickens and all the supplies were in the trunk. The car was packed to the brim. I needed them to share the front seat. Cashew wouldn’t go for it. I grabbed her and hoisted her into the car, closing the door quickly before she could jump out. She would have to make do on the seat. Her poor legs shook the whole way there. She was just not good at balance the way her sister was, but she would make it. I was about to leave when i stopped the car. I ran back to the house and unlocked the door. I grabbed the down comforter that had saved us and threw it in the car.
I locked the door again and got behind the steering wheel. If we didn’t make it to Cindy’s, the comforter would be the answer. It would keep us warm and mean the difference from dying in our car or surviving and waiting for rescue.
I pulled the car across the yard and through the gate. We were sliding as we struggled to get up on the road and then stay on the road. There was so much snow you couldn’t tell where the road was under it. There were no snow plows in texas. I made the decision to leave the gate wide open. If i got out to close it we might get stuck. And so we were off.
I prayed to God the whole way to protect the car and let us make this journey and arrive safely without incident. We lost traction often but we never went off the road. I held Cashew’s collar with one hand while she tried to eat the chickens in the back seat and drove with the other, feathering the brake at times and driving 5 to 15 mph the whole way there. What should have been a 20 minute drive on the highway took an eternity. I learned to prefer the snow because the snow began melting and then refreezing as ice and the icy patches were much more slippery to drive on than the snow. We had to go over a couple bridges to get to Cindy’s. These were worse than the roads but we made it across at a creeping pace. I just kept driving and just kept praying and holding onto that dog’s collar so she couldn’t turn round and eat the chickens. When i pulled into the town Cindy lived in and neared her street i realized we were going to make it. When i pulled into her driveway i realized we had done it. She was on the grid with a nursing home. She would not lose power. We had made it. We were saved. I let go of the steering wheel i had been white knuckling and told myself “you waited too long. Next time we leave the property sooner.” I was so happy to see people. I was so happy to see lights and heat. Cindy’s son carried the chickens to her closed in back porch and i took the dogs potty one by one. I set the crate up in her spare bedroom and put them in it. Then i began unloading the car.
All 5 chickens had made the journey and would survive with us. I knew people who had left their chickens outside and were sure they were dead now. Daisy, Rosie, Petunia, Lily, and Buttercup would not join these chickens. They bedded down in the hay in the dog crate on the back porch. My friend Cindy had put a heater out there for them and my favorite chicken Daisy liked to turn her fanny towards it and let it ruffle her feathers like wind. We put towels and burlap over the back end of the crate to keep the cold out and their body heat in further.
The dogs slept under our down comforter in her guest bed with me. They seemed super comfortable, enjoying the heat and lack of need to duck their heads under the covers. Cashew moved and squirmed most of the night. It was like sleeping with a restless toddler, but i was glad she was alive to be able to drive me crazy.
I did a little bit of school work but most of my time was spent getting the dogs and chickens food, water, and potty breaks in their captivity. There was no fence here. The dogs could not be allowed loose, and i hadnt been able to fit the giant chicken water dispenser in the crate, so the chickens had to be hand watered by holding a plastic bowl into the crate and securing it against the crate wall so they didnt tip it while drinking. It snowed two more times while we stayed with my friend Cindy one town over. We had heat and electricity the whole time. Sometimes it pays to live next to a nursing home. I thanked the Lord that my friend Cindy was so generous to take us all, even the chickens. I thanked the Lord for allowing us to get there and telling me when it was time to go.
Now that there wasn’t such a possibility of death, the snow was beautiful.
I had never seen anything like it. Neither had south and central Texas. That’s why the pipes weren’t buried too deeply. This turned out to be a problem.
Some days the sun would melt all the snow and then the following day the weather would put it all back.
Cindy had fruit trees that had been trying to do what my avocado tree and agarita berry bushes were doing when the unforgiving ice encased them.
Cindy’s house was our safe haven. None of us had water but we were all happy to have heat and electricity. Cindy had a fire place and lots of wood. Every time Cindy’s son went into work he brought some of their firewood to give away to people who might need it. I loved Cindy’s family’s hearts. They were always looking out for other people and seeing what they had to give, how they could help. We had plenty of food, good company, and Cindy and her son taught me some new card games and one with wooden tiles with different shapes painted on them.
I was due to go back to work on Saturday so i knew i would have to return to our property Friday night but something told me i would be better going on Friday morning. Thursday around midday Cindy and i went to the local market to get food for the next week. The ice had melted from the streets and was now just on the grass. People were panic buying and the stores were becoming empty. I figured less people would be at the market than the big chain stores like HEB and Walmart and the managers at work had wanted us to not take all the resources from the customers so i figured going to the market was the best thing for us. I was lucky enough to get the last bunch of bananas and the last box of mushrooms. There was plenty of veg left. I got apples, oranges, plums, a bag of carrots, a bag of chopped dates, a can of refried beans, a can of olives, a can of pumpkin, a box of almond crackers, a couple packs of d batteries for the lantern, broccoli, a bag of baby potatoes, a box of grape tomatoes, asparagus, cauliflower, and Brussels sprouts. There was a lot left at the market and i was thankful. However, there was no water. I figured, juice was liquid. It wasn’t water but it was liquid. It would keep us alive. I bought two jugs of apple juice. Cindy drove us back to her house and i thanked the Lord for providing us with all this food and the apple juice.
The morning of our return i loaded the car, then the chickens, and then the dogs. Upon trying to lift the crate with the chickens in it i wondered how on earth Cindy’s son had managed to carry them. He made it look easy but each bird weighed up to 10 lbs and then the weight of the food and hay and poo on top of it. I dragged the crate through the snow, around the house, and up to the trunk. Cindy helped me lift it in. Cashew seemed excited to go home. Sili was pensive as usual. She would see where we were going first and then decide how excited she should be. I was sad to leave my friend Cindy who i had become accustomed to sharing meals with. However, i did feel this pulling need to get back to the property i had abandoned and make sense of it. I didn’t like the idea that i had left it unattended but it was the best option at the time.
Pulling up, i was surprised at how much snow there was still on the ground. Things were melting quicker one town over.
The gate was open just as i had left it. As i pulled into the property my concern was on where to put the car so that it wouldn’t get stuck in the melting slush, so i’d be able to get it off the property to go to work in town the following morning. However, as more of the property came into view i realized that was the least of my worries.
I left the car running for the chickens and the dogs and hopped out to manage the crisis before my eyes. Water was spewing through the wall of the well house and seeping underneath the door as well. I could hear rushing water and as i put the key in the hole and flung the door open i got my first look at the geyser erupting from my well pump. The softeners were covered with water droplets. All of the insulation was soaked. I soon became wet as well. My focus was now on cutting power to the well pump. We had to stop the gallons of water just pouring out of my 250 foot well. We had to save the water. I reached for the red handle that would normally cut the water off in an emergency but that piece of pipe was after the break and now no longer connected in any way to the pipe. I had two breaker boxes. I had to find the corresponding keys. I called a well drilling/repair company. It was the first and last time i would get somebody to answer in hours. I had one question, “inside or outside breaker box?” The lady on the other end of the line said, “outside”. I jammed keys into the padlock until i found the right one, lifted the box lid, located the switches labeled “well”, and flipped them to the side. The geyser stopped. Thank God. I surveyed the damage. Around half our two acre property was covered in water, which had melted the snow. To get to the house i sunk ankle deep in icy mud slush. The water had gone under the house. Thank God it was raised up. The water had gone under the house, come out the other side, and was now past the chicken coop and into the dog run. Dear God what a disaster. Time to begin damage control.
I took pictures of the damage, filed an insurance claim, called repair men all day, and began making a list of all the things that needed fixed.
The problem was that everyone’s well had busted. So, there was a month long waiting list just to get repair men out to your property. With a busted well pump i was looking at a month with no water. I heard the national guard was coming with water. As i sit and write this they still haven’t reached my town and in the bigger cities where they are already there’s lines of hundreds of cars waiting for one 24 pack of water, which is a problem because there’s no gas to put in the cars. Its almost dangerous how people hound the tankers when they come into town. They follow them in search of gas and then the truck drivers can’t park for there’s a swarm of cars that want to be first to get the gasoline the tankers are bringing.
The flood was a mess. Unfortunately, between the snow and the flood, at some point the a/c/heating unit died. It was unrevivable. The a/c repair man i usually used was really nice and agreed to come out that day. He took a look at it and said the motherboard was dead. I would need a whole new one. He would have to order it but the company was historically impossible to get ahold of. I knew all too well. The government asked me to identify why my structure was no longer livable in order to be eligible to receive repair funds in our recently declared state of disaster. I checked the boxes “no a/c/heat” “no water” and “flood”. We’ll see if anything ever comes of that but i’ve got to go ahead with the repairs…can’t wait on the government.
It was at this point that i made the decision the dogs would need to be farmed out elsewhere. I had to stay here and fix the property. The chickens would be fine to stay with their insulating feathers and hay, but the dogs couldn’t be left her in an un-climate controlled tin box with no water while i was at work. I called every reasonable vet in town. They were all booked solid with people who had already figured out their structures were unlivable and farmed their cats and dogs out. I then tried one of the most expensive vets in town. They had a few slots open and agreed to take my dogs for a week. I rushed the dogs over before they closed and gave the vet tech my dogs and their food. I asked for them to be boarded together so they could sleep on one another and keep each other company. I knew they would think i had abandoned them. I dreamed of a day when i had fixed the property and could come back and get them and bring them home. I didn’t want to leave them but i knew in order to make money for the repairs i had to go back to work. To keep my job i had to go back to work, and i couldn’t leave them in the house with no heat or air. They were safer at the vet. The vet tech said they had had lights and water for 24 hours so she figured they would have resources for my dogs. I left and hurried back to meet the next repair man on the property and continue to try and get a hold of a well repair man.
I took stock of my property. It was a real mess. It was set to get into the twenties that night. I planned to use the oven and the space heater but when the space heater overheated i went to using the oven exclusively to heat the house. It was cold. I needed to make a go of this. The property had to be fixed and i had to be here in order to make that happen.
I went out in search of juice and found four bottles of apple juice. My friend Cindy went out and found many bottles of grape juice and mineral water. She brought them to me. Since there was no water i repurposed the shower as a refrigerator. It was on the edge of the house and much colder than the rest of it. Cindy brought me two buckets of water collected from melting ice for the chickens. I spent a couple hours in the yard filling my big red feed bucket in the yard with ice and packed snow so that the chickens would have a big reserve of drinking water. When i was finished i pulled the piece of plywood over it to keep it from evaporating. I had become so used to 10 degrees that 48 felt hot. I didnt need a jacket and the sun felt really warm. The a/c repair guy looked at me like i was crazy, bundled in his jacket. I guessed he hadn’t spent as much time in the elements as i had pottying and watering animals all the time and going back and forth to the shed.
I drank the juice and saved the drinking water for tooth brushing, sink baths, and the chickens. Many of my coworkers and friends lost some or all of their chickens to the cold. They found them dead in the coop when the weather cleared. I feel blessed to have mine still. People tried everything to buy the eggs but i won’t sell them. I use them to barter or to repay someone who has done something kind for me without asking anything in return. That is the way that feels right to me and that is the way i will keep it. Many who wanted to buy my eggs weren’t comfortable offering me water or a place to shower in payment which just confirmed the sanctity of my policy on selling vs giving eggs away. Do what instinctually feels right and you’ll veer off the path a lot less often.
I got on the phone and started texting people looking for someone who would let me take a shower, someone who had water. I hadnt had one in 6 days and was fixing to have to report to work in the morning. A coworker who had water opened his home to the rest of us and invited anyone who needed a shower to come on and bring a towel and it was theirs to use. I took him up on it. I tried to pay him in chicken eggs but he wouldnt take them. I showed up at the address given with soap and a towel and they let me take my first shower in 6 days, my first hot shower in a year. I felt human again. I was now appropriate for work. I called around and found four other people with water. I would rotate between them until the well got fixed so that i wouldn’t tax one person’s water bill. Every day after work i would line up a shower before leaving town for the property. People were very generous. I laughed when people in northern states said we were looking for a handout in texas asking for the government to come rescue us. The government didn’t rescue me. My neighbors did.
i finally did get ahold of a well company in a small town two towns over from mine. They agreed to come out and take a look just to see what would need ordered when they could get to me. While they were out looking they managed to rig the piping to the well pump fixed with some pvc pieces and some purple glue. I couldn’t believe it. We cut the power back on to the well pump and it didn’t bust. It held and i had water. They informed me it was a temporary fix and wouldnt withstand another storm but would hold for now until the disaster waiting list was cleared at least. I could have hugged the both of them i was so happy but remembered my social distancing. The a/c repair guy informed me the company wasn’t responding to him so i called home depot and ordered the only a/c/heating window unit that wasn’t on back order. It arrives in nine days. I called the vet and booked the dogs in for another week. Once my repair guy puts in the window unit the dogs can come home. Until then i use the oven to heat the house and open the windows to cool it. It’s very quiet and lonely in here without my dogs and im having to be more hands on about keeping the coyotes, foxes, and one stubborn raccoon from the chicken pen. All the animals notice the absence of the dogs and are reclaiming the property, coming closer and closer to the coop and the house. With coyotes in the yard at night i’ve started wearing my machete on my hip again. They’re fearless well-fed coyotes that prey mostly on the neighbor’s sheep. He hates them. Anyways, with the water back at the property i can use the toilet once more. I was peeing in a pitcher and dumping it outside in the grass and pooping into ziploc freezer bags for quite a while there. If i had to say what i missed most out of the resources it would definitely be the toilet. Squatting with arthritis in every joint is just no picnic. Sitting is a luxury. I know that now.
With all hands on deck at the grocery there were no parking spots at work. I had to park across town in the garage and walk. It was 38 degrees and windy. As i walked a woman pulled her van over and asked if i wanted a ride to the grocery. She saw my uniform and knew where i was going. She said she didnt ever do this sort of thing but God put it on her heart to give me a ride that morning when she saw me walking. I thanked her. She drove me right to the door. I told her to have a blessed day and that i would pray she found gas soon. What she didn’t know was that moments before i had asked God to help me get to the store. All my stuff was falling off my shoulders and out of my arms and i was cold and the wind kept whipping the pages of my book up and i asked him to help me get there, and he sent me a woman in a van. People at our store opened their homes for me to shower in, brought water from their tap or well for me and the chickens, and told me i could do laundry at their places. I ended up doing laundry at my friend Cindy’s and watching her do some late night baking. I couldn’t believe how generous people were being to each other. Then i heard what the store had done when the power went out. Unable to use the cash registers, the employees had formed a line and the remaining customers in the store were told their groceries were free. The employees told the customers to be safe and have a blessed day as they left with hundreds of dollars of groceries at no charge. I saw evidence of God everywhere in this mess. It was beautiful.
Curbside was closed so we worked in whatever department we were needed. We unloaded trucks, faced shelves, and bagged at the registers. I was bagging when a customer asked if he could give me something. I started to say no as i knew we were not allowed to accept tips. Plenty of people did but i knew it was a fireable offense and even if others didnt find out, i would know. Plus, there were cameras everywhere, so i had actually thrown a tip back in the backseat of a car and run several times in an attempt to keep my hands clean and have job security. However, when he pulled it out, it was a penny with a cross punched in the center. Since it was no longer whole it could not be used as currency and i could accept it. I thanked him and took it from his hand. I will wear this penny around my neck for the rest of my life to remind me of the beautiful ripple effect of God’s love that i was able to witness during the aftermath of the winter storm of 2021.
i found a little onion growing where last year’s attempt at a garden had been. It was barely buried and had partially frozen so i dug it up. It was a little one but it tasted just like a regular onion.