As i get older and my auto immune disorder progresses i am forced to do things in a different way…slower and more incremental. It is endlessly frustrating because my mind still very much has adhd even if my body is heck bent on eating itself, and my brain only has two modes: “get shit done” and “floor blob”. You cant really choose one and not the other…they exist because of each other. So my brain still being fully functional and me, i bought 7 trees, because thats when they were in season and available at the plant nursery. Then the part where i take a pick axe, a giant metal stick with a point on the end, and a shovel and dig a 3 ft by 2 ft hole in limestone rock 7 times….that part failed to happen, until it was nearly too late. I began digging in late october. I did not get all 7 holes dug but i did as many as i could and the ones i didnt get to by the frosting months would have to winter in the house with me.
This would be the pomegranate tree that i bought when i thought one of my two others died and was dead for a really long time and then the moment i bought this one it decided it was alive. So now i have three pomegranate trees and none of them make fruit. This would be my long awaited and much sought after hachiya persimmon tree. I really hope it lives!Come on little guy: survive the winter!Recently some people in my life have misinterpreted my realization that i have a progressive autoimmune disorder as some kind of acknowledgment of the fact that i need to put down my power tools, hang up my hat, and go sit in a chair while someone takes care of me. For those who are waiting for me to come to that conclusion, you’re going to be waiting a very long time. Im very fond of my independence and life is without purpose if i cant have my solitude and the woods. Just so we’re clear: i’m going to be here doing my thing with my push mower and my power tools and my digging tools for my entire life, until i’m not, and i dont intend to learn to share, so buckle up and keep waiting and let me know when pigs develop wings. I’d like to see that.
