Really Poor Luck, I Guess.

I was having so much trouble regulating a fever that i did not do any of the evening chores. I did not feed the chickens. I did not water the plants. I did not get and filter water for the house. It wasnt an active choice not to do them. I was hallucinating and the world went sideways every time i stood up. Every bone in my body ached. I could not get warm. My head felt like someone was whacking it with a machete every time i blinked. It wasnt a decision to neglect my chores. The problem was, with a fever that high my brain was no longer onboard. Sequencing tasks was not a thing that was going to happen. I thought i would put something on my stomach, take a fever reducer, and life would be peachy. Problem managed, right? Apparently not. With 2 fever reducing teas, one steeped 15 minutes and the other 30, and one 500 mg fever reducing tablet on board, an hour later my fever was 100.0. I was no longer hallucinating but the bone pain would just not leave me. It felt like someone was trying to pull me apart at my hips. Unfortunately i had to go drive to procure the fever reducing tablets and the thermometer, so, i was trying to drive the car while all my joints and bones felt like they were ripping apart and the surrounding landscape had gone all wavy as if it were 105 degrees in summer and i was staring at the spot just above the asphalt where the heat could be observed rising up in shimmery waves. Obviously i couldnt drive anywhere at this point and i had to just inhabit the parked car until i could get my fever lowered. I began hearing crowds of people that i knew weren’t there. They were all talking at once as if a musical or play was having an intermission and everyone had 5 to 10 minutes in which they could stretch their legs and get all their talking done for the rest of the night before the show began again. I stretched out over the passenger seat and writhed around trying to get my hips more comfortable as i waited for the fever reducers to kick in. It wasnt just my hips that were killing me. It was also my femurs, like the middle of my leg bones. Everything was pain; pain that i couldnt scratch at or get away from. I tried to compare it to the endometriosis pain i had been in 24 hours before my new problem (illness) started and i decided nothing held a candle to endometriosis pain. I would take fever pain, broken bones, and just so many other things ten thousand times over before i chose endometriosis pain. I think i was more annoyed that i had been in 24 whole hours of mind numbing endometriosis pain, telling myself if i made it to the next day it’d be better, only to transition straight into a different kind of pain. Not nice, universe. Not nice. I ended up having to get two fever reducing teas, a 500 mg fever reducing tablet, and another 500 mg fever reducing tablet on board to reduce the fever to 98.9. My regular temperature because of my thyroid is 97.3. So, 350 mg of fever reducer in a different kind of cold and flu med later…temp was down to 97.8. Im 5 ft. I dont weigh that much. I can usually get away with taking the kid dose of things. Now the adult dose by itself wasnt putting a dent in this fever. Im over here combining things that im not comfortable combining because to have a fever so high im hallucinating is not an option and i dont fancy some more bone pain. The side effect of using the 350 mg thing is that theres a mucus drying agent in that multi pill and so you have to drink literal ****-tons of liquid to keep up with the affects or your muscles will all cramp. Ive been drinking tons of coconut water. Then you’re married to the toilet for hours as if you’re a nursing home resident on scheduled “water pills”. I wont say the brand lest i be sued. So yeah, my fever is managed enough at the moment that i can think and stand up, God had mercy on me and made it rain so, maybe the plants will live after all, and now the problem of, im running out of these 350 mg orange gel cap thingies, and 1000 mg of the white tablet thingies doesnt keep the fever down by themselves but taking a whole nother 500 mg tablet thingy will certainly cause irreparable liver damage so my neighbor is going to town tomorrow to pick up more and hang them on the fence for me and i will ration them by taking one of the gel caps every other time until then. Or, you know, my immune system could just wake the **** up and make use of the 1000 mg of vitamin c, elderberry, and echinacea every three hours as well as constant coconut water with electrolytes…i mean come on im literally giving you what it is you are supposed to use to arm yourself, so where are the soldiers?! The invader rode in and my body literally tossed a white flag on the battlefield and walked off. Im actually quite worried about this one because my one dog, Sili, does a sniff test whenever im ill and if its nothing but a cold she ignores me and saunters off. If i’m going to be very sick for an extended period of time she curls up against me and licks and nuzzles me and is very attentive. She has been very attentive, trying to snuggle me and be with me all of the past two days but mostly i wont let her because im so uncomfortable ive been doing a lot of thrashing about and i dont want her to be tumbled around as if she’s in a clothes dryer so i have tried to keep her with her sister cashew who is not allowed in the bed for bull in a china shop reasons. Someone said to me via text when i mentioned i was not going to make it in to work, “oh good, now you can rest and spend some time with your animals, thats what your body needs.” Boy it sounds more glamorous than it is man. I dont know who is spending quality time with the animals. I barely know they’re here. Most of the time i let them outside and crawl back in bed and yesterday the dogs only had dinner, skipped breakfast, and even though i know there’s still half a plastic bin of feed for them if they get their heads down far enough, i still havent fed the chickens. I am not spending time with anyone or anything man. Im in purgatory. Im waiting for this to be over.